I feel weird. I’m not happy and I’m not sad.
I’m just livin’
BUT IT FEELS SO GOOD.

Goodnight

I’ve been sleeping a lot more than usual lately because the only time I’m okay is when I dream, if I even dream at all.

It makes me sick knowing what is about to happen.

didn’t wanna be your ghost

The problem with only having a physical relationship with someone is that you never know the whole story. You are satisfied, but not completely. That small corner of emptiness keeps you wondering, who is this person? You want to know more, but the situation doesn’t allow it. Especially with someone in the spotlight. They seem translucent, like most known people would. Knowing him personally was a different story. He was mysterious
secretive
alluring.
Bringing it up to an emotional level was hard, however; it was attempted
It was worse when he went on tour for 2 months, and back home we lived across the city.
Back to square 1.
Then one day it totally stopped.
It’s been almost a month and I’m still thirsty to know more.
I want to soak up everything there is to know, but it’s not going to be like that.
I just wanted it to work out in the end.

I always wear black because I’m always in mourning

Everything is finally coming together and it’s oh so perfect.

leave the silver city

’cause you’re the only thing I ever want anymore.